New Leaf

lilac-budEight days ago, I woke up ready. Ready to embrace the changes that lay ahead. Ready to accept my independence. Ready to manage my food intake at the same time as A’s. Ready to feel good again. Ready to move forward.  

This shift feels major. Like the times I declared I would train for and run a 5k, and did it every time. Like the time in 2008 I declared I would start taking care of myself again, after too many years of people pleasing. Like the time at the end of 2009 when I left my largest client and relaunched my business identity. But this time, it’s more personal than ever.

January through mid-April this year, I felt so angry, so sad, so hurt. I wrestled with forgiveness in my heart.

Eight days ago I weighed and measured my breakfast food. Nothing I ate contained flour. Nothing I ate contained sugar. Nothing I ate contained corn. I announced to my children that I was ready to reclaim my well being. I chopped some vegetables for lunch, mixed them with olive oil and seasonings, and placed them in the steamer above my rice cooker. It smelled delicious. I ate them for lunch and dinner. I continued this for seven more days. And I’m continuing again today. One day at a time.

I did not come to this new place alone. Recent powerful conversations with many people, including but not limited to Linda, Stef, Michelle, Bryn, Chris, Naomi, Barbara, Ginger, Erin, Cindy, Marcie, Yoojin, Ruth, Karen, and Eileen, have led me here. As has prayer. As did Jennifer Zwiebel’s Into the Light event May 5th.

This morning I watched this TEDx talk by Marcus Sheridan, one of my blogging inspirations. At the end, he challenges everyone who hears his talk to “allow truth and transparency to change everything.”  If you’ve been reading my blogs for a while, you know I’m committed. Marcus has led me to wonder, how do I take it to the next level?

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6 Comments

  1. Cristin

    So happy for you. It's nice when the circuit breaker gets flipped back on. Glad you're finding community to support you, too. Thinking of you often.
    My recent post Greetings from the other side

  2. Devra Weiss

    Congratulations on reaching this point! It feels so good to have that extra bit of energy and empowerment for self-care and looking forward beyond the immediate issues. Hope it becomes a positive spiral!

  3. Karen Dwyer

    So wonderful to learn of your newest adventure. Good for you. Keep doing what you're doing; you're doing great! More will be revealed. Miracles DO happen (if we let them). Be well. Karen

  4. Melanie Rose Power Coombs

    I encourage you to continue! I'm eating the same way. I'm on 2 months now. After doing 30 days – I had a few days where I went back to my old ways but the food didn't have the same allure. I am feeling better than ever running, eating wheat free, sugar free, high fructose corn syrup free and keeping my carbs under 30%. It is possible to eat all you want of the "approved foods" and loose weight! I am focusing on eating greens and meat and I'm thoroughly enjoying the results. My headaches have diminished and my acid reflux is improving and I'm loosing weight while feeling full. I encourage you to continue. You can live very satisfied with alternatives.

    I make treats with almond flour and sweeten with honey.

    Enjoy your life and feel good again!
    🙂 Melanie Coombs

  5. Jennifer Zwiebel

    Beautiful Debra!! I've been hearing it and seeing it in you, and as always, you're an inspiration. You are committed to truth and transparency, and everyone lucky enough to know you gets to benefit from it. I know I do, and I thank you. xox