I haven’t written a blog post in so long that I’m afraid I’ve forgotten how. How did I think up topics? How did I have the courage to express myself publicly? How did I wrap everything in pithy little lessons?
Over the past six months I’ve focused on overhauling my website and branding. I’m so excited that’s done! And I’ve been toying with the idea of writing about the tremendous pressure U.S. women professionals are under these days.
Ironically, I’m not feeling tremendous pressure myself lately. The tools I teach my clients are working, for me and others. I have been clear about my priorities. I am organized. I am focused on the next right thing. And right now the next right thing is writing a blog post. But what to write?
I’m hungry. I think I’ll have some lunch and come back to this question. Fortunately I have everything on hand that I need for nutritious One-Bowl Eating. Be right back.
So… my website looks different. It feels like me. It looks like me. I am proud of it.
Similarly, my life feels different. It feels like me! I am proud of it.
What about how I look? My hair is longer than it’s been in decades, and blonder! It’s different. It feels like me! And I have some killer new sunglasses.
In short, I’m showing up in the world in a different way. And I feel called to write about it. But that scares me.
What if people know I’ve been feeling at peace? What if people know that my life —the very one that’s so chock-full of responsibilities— feels (even temporarily) manageable? What if they no longer associate me with struggle and instead associate me with joy and ease? What if I jinx my good feelings by publicly acknowledging them? Through the process of today’s free-writing I’ve realized I have fear and shame about potentially triggering negative consequences with my newfound degree of alignment.
That said, a Higher Brilliance tells me it’s time to step up, onto the next level of the staircase of my life. [bctt tweet=”A Higher Brilliance tells me it’s time to step onto the next level of the staircase of my life.” username=”connecttwo”] It’s time for me to step up and be more easily seen. It’s time for me to step up and enjoy the new view. (And if I scare or anger any forces as a result, maybe it’s time for me not to look their way anymore.)
I am ready to show up in the world in a different way. I am ready to own my good feelings! My role in the world is in part to demonstrate compassion, insight and inspiration. I am ready to step it up.
How about you? Is it time for you to reestablish your identity, through your career or your appearance or some other way? How does that idea make you feel? What is it time for you to own? Please share in the comments below.